I Am Not Alone

I am alone… I’m single, but unafraid.  I am confident in who I am.  I am a blogger and a daughter of an Almighty King.  I smile in the face of adversity.

I am alone… My mind wanders to places it hasn’t been for some time.  I consider letting someone in.

I am alone… My heart beats wildly as we talk face to face, through random Facebook messages and eventually texts.

I am not alone… His faith strengthens mine.  He provides comfort through the Word and his prayers.

I am not alone… We share common interests, common desires for mission work and to serve God fully.

I am not alone… We also share in struggles of the flesh.

I am not alone… We allow our struggles to become one.

I am alone… I willingly turn my back on God and run to an earthly creation for satisfaction.

I am alone… I have allowed myself to become attached.  My heart cries out for more, but he is unwilling to reciprocate.

I am alone… I am a stumbling block before him.  I need to stop pursuing him.  I am an evil temptation.  I must surrender my feelings to God.

I am not alone… I, raw and broken, bow before the Almighty and seek forgiveness.  I pray for patience or for the desires of my heart to be removed, so that I can make more room for God to enter in.

I am alone… Accusations that I’m not strong enough in my faith arise.  “You need to stop!” echoes in my ears and I begin to doubt myself.

I am not alone… I am one of many caught in his web.

I am not alone… Disturbing truth comes to light.

I am alone… As sick as it may be, I want to run to him for comfort. His power over me is that strong.

I am not alone… God has protected me through it all.

I am not alone… There are people surrounding me with love and prayers.  There are shoulders to cry on, hands to hold, arms to envelop me in hugs.  There are prayers being lifted from as near as the next cubicle, to as far away as Napa Valley.

I am not alone… The road will be long. The numbness will wear off and the aftermath will be messy.  The healing will take time. But there are people who will walk beside me.  Jesus will be there too.

“I am not alone.  You will go before me.  You will never leave me!”